Well, I guess this is the end for me.. Below is the note I’ve wrote for my mother and father, so if anyone is wondering why I’m not online anymore than this should explain it.

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Dear Mom & Dad,

Please forgive me. I have tried to be good to you both. I love you both very much and wanted to get along with you both. I have tried.

And about sven, I want him to know that I’m sorry I couldnt be a better person and that I hope he has a good life. I must have been born to suffer.

And mother, I wish that you hadn’t called me a liar, and said I was just like hez. as I’m not. It is just that I am afraid of you both at times, but I love you both very much.

So Long

Your loving daughter,
that will always love you,
kelsey

P.S. Please forgive me. I want you to, and don’t think for one minute that I haven’t appreciate everything you’ve done.
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I have a bottle of Coricidin from a wisdom tooth operation I had last year and some painkillers from my moms bedroom, Not sure If all this is enough to do it but I guess i’ll just have to try again if not.

Okay, so.. goodbye to all my e-friends.. I would write a note for you too but it’s probably pointless, and I dont really have enough time, my dad will come home in 2 hours or so. I have my cat with me, and all the photos of me and sven, i just want to spend the last few minutes of my life remembering the good times we had together

bye <3

I believe that this question can be debated upon forever but the fact remains that as older humans we assume to know what is right and what is wrong therefore determining what we consider evil or good. But if we take what we know to be evil and good as older humans and apply it to say a young child or toddler where their only focus is on the self and getting what is wanted, does this selfish attidude and lack of thought for others make a human that has been unable to tell good from bad yet naturally evil? In this sense it appears that humans have naturally evil traits and the way that a human is raised determines if they will gain good traits later in life and do good things. Due to this I believe that humans may start out with what is considered bad or evil.All humans have the power to change it is just a matter of growing out of the traits that have been considered bad by normal standards and develope into better humans in a sense that they have good morals and judgement to apply through out life. Please remark on my thoughts as i would like to see what other people think about this.

Yesh, I am^^ after a looong break. So what was I doing this whole time? I’ve spent my christmas in germany^^ It’s the best place I’ve ever been! I love visitng and I hope to move there sometime. While I was there (btw my bf smokes) He translated the “smokers die younger” warning on the front of the cigarette box.. but like.. what if your too old to die young? does that mean it’s ok to smoke? I think smoking is like a virus, the habbit has been spreading for decades and no victim is to young (LOOK TO YOUR LEFT) lol looks like he was caught by surprise :p anyhoo.. I think i might go watch a movie now.. if your interested I go here for all my movies: www.quicksilverscreen.com you can watch them online and they are updated every hour or so and you dont even have to sign up!! amazing!! I’m just waiting for titanic, I love that movie^^ tonight I will watch “uncounted 2008″. but they have lots more, american pie is so funny!! OK THATS ALL… BYE!!!

ps: smoking kills!

HELLO BLOG WORLD!

ok so this is my first post here (actually my first post on any blog ever!) and im not exactly sure what to write.. I think this would be a good place to complain about the world but i have nothing to complain about right now^^ I have always wanted to ride a rhino but im not sure thats possible, is it? could i be the first???? I had 2 hours sleep lastnight so im not in a writing mood :p hope you like the blog, its only just been started but i usually get bored of things like myspace (i hate them) im lazy when it comes to updating! lol.. well, all i’ve done today is study CSS/XHTML as i do almost everyday because i hope i can make a job out of it (although my goal is a flash developer) i guess i need css/xhtml basics too.. I already knew a bit of perl and php/javascript ect.. erm ok that’s all.. byebye! x